Song & Original Writing · Written by Sean Michaelson
Original Writing: 10/17/1998 · Song Version: 2/9/2026
Original Writing
On the battlefield I stand terrified in the darkness. I scream for it to just be over. Out of breath, heart beating out of my chest Echoes in the black, testing my strength to fight.
I draw my sword, grasping for strength I fear will never come. Wading in this poison black that echoing beat deafens me, A flash of rage overcomes me, and I scream outward into stillness air For a peace to die quickly
A flash beckons and illumination reveals the battlefield of shame, fear, and torturous truth of sorrow amongst blood that stills on the floor around me.
A horrifying figure shadows over me slowly instilling a deeper pain way down within And the horror is unbearable as I clutch even tighter to the sword I unsheathed moments before from love.
My eyes focus up to the figure and it reveals truth that kills without a single blow. I fall to my knees drowning in forgotten tears, lost in that death of silence.
As it moves closer it is all I can do to just watch as it allows me to escape into nothing, and it just mocks me with a laugh of strength, a power that it has over me.
I battle the best I can in tears and a silent prayer that God has never heard. I raise my sword from love and attempt to rise to my feet. Shaking to rise I find my footing in the abyss of hate and misguided intentions pathed toward a devil to kill.
With all my strength I raise my sword and attempt to scream again to show my strength but it comes out as that cry. I desperately swing my sword that is out of control and too heavy for precision, with everything that remains in my heart and somehow as it mocks me again with laughter moving away I discover a room.
No explanation, no peace, just a room, back in reality of defeat, yet still alive somehow. Alone, away from the battle yet barely standing with the echoes of beating stilling to sanity.
This is my battle every day for the rest of my days, the truth strips me down into tears on my bed. I continue to fight and so badly seek to be free. Another word I cannot find because the truth in the quiet reveals a bed I made perfectly.
The following lyrics were inspired by the original writing above.
Song Lyrics
Verse 1
On the battlefield I stand, shaking in the dark
Breath is razor thin, heart tearing through my chest
Echoes claw the black, testing who I am
I scream for it to end, for mercy or collapse
I draw my sword with hands that barely hold
Reaching for a strength I swear I never owned
Wading through this poison, pulse inside my skull
The beat is screaming louder than my soul
Pre-Chorus
A flash of rage ignites what’s left of me
I scream into the void for peace to kill me clean
Chorus
Illuminate this battlefield of shame
Fear and sorrow soaking through the blood and pain
Truth cuts deeper than a blade could ever be
I fall to my knees — defeated by what’s in me
Verse 2
A shadow moves above me, slow and sure
Dragging every wound back into the light
I clutch the sword I pulled from love and hope
But love feels weak when truth won’t let you fight
I look up and it kills without a blow
My strength dissolves, forgotten tears overflow
I drown in silence, suffocating still
As laughter proves the power it can wield
Pre-Chorus
It steps closer — I can’t turn away
I’m begging God in prayers He never says
Chorus
Illuminate this battlefield of shame
Fear and sorrow soaking through the blood and pain
Truth cuts deeper than a blade could ever be
I fall to my knees — defeated by what’s in me
Bridge (Breakdown)
I rise on shaking legs, blind faith in hate
Lost inside intentions paved straight to hell
I swing too hard, the blade is far too heavy
Every ounce of heart — but no control, no aim
It laughs again and fades into the dark
And I’m left standing — broken, breathing still
Final Chorus
No victory, no peace, no reason why
Just a room where all my battles go to die
Every day I fight this war behind my eyes
Stripped to tears by truths I can’t deny
Outro
This is my battle for the rest of my days
Truth waits quietly in the bed that I made
I’m still alive — but barely free
Fighting myself… and what I see in me
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Note: The music and vocal performance for this song were generated using AI tools. The original writing and lyrics were written by me (Sean Michaelson). My hope is to someday collaborate with musicians and vocalists to bring these songs to life in a deeper and more personal way.
